November 22, 2013

A Dream Shattered!!!!!

Every kid dreams big. I did too......

I wanted to be an Astronaut when I read about Rakesh Sharma and Yuri Gagarin at school. The thought of walking in space, watching the Earth Sun and Moon from the space captured my imagination as a child.

Then I wanted to be a scientist to help people when I learned about Sir C.V Raman and his experiments. And the first time I ever saw the Batman cartoon, I knew I wanted to be like him.

As I grew up, I figured out, what I thought were careers in my early years in school were just childhood fantasies (may be not the batman one :D). I had a very clear mind. I knew what I would be happy doing. I decided to become an Air Force Pilot.

The decision to become a Pilot was not because I was patriotic..Everyone is patriotic but no one does anything about it. Anyways, why I really wanted to become a pilot is because I loved the thought of being able to FLY.

I could have applied to fly commerical planes. But that path is "costly" and I am from a middle class family. Moreover, Commercial Airlines do not let you fly upside down :)

The thought of becoming an Air Force pilot consumed me.
I sat for the written test for NDA. Cakewalk. I knew I would get through that.

And then, I got the call from the AFSB (Airforce Selection Board), Mysore. The dates of the SSB interview clashed with my Engineering Counselling dates. I was still clear on what I wanted.
I went to Mysore.

I passed the PABT(Pilot Aptitude Battery Test).
A test that you can take only once in your life time. Either you have it in you or you don't. That simple!! Things were looking good. I was confident.

Then came the group discussion. As usual, as it happens in most of the Group Discussions, an argument between 2 idiots transformed the entire conversation into a verbal duel.

The outcome - I failed the SSB interview. I felt cheated.
They said something about group washout because none of us behaved the way we should have.
I was too shocked to pay any attention. I was reimbursed the money I spent on getting there and asked to go back.
A dream shattered!!!

The obedient son I was, I completed my Engineering thinking all the while that I can apply for CDS (Combined Defence Services).

I didn't factor in the brainwashing I would receive from all the people I was close to, about this career choice.
The greatest regret of my life will be that I listened to my family and let go of that dream.

Although I passed the written test for CDS, I never appeared for the SSB interview.
It still brings a wave of sadness when I think about it.

I dreamt of a career in a cockpit. Fate landed me in a cubicle :)

What Will Smith said in The Pursuit of Happyness is true

"You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period"


November 20, 2013

The Bucket List 2

An Update to the list


1. Bungee Jump
2. Learn to Sky Dive
3. Propose to the girl I love on my knees
4. Visit a country other than India
5. Visit Ladakh
6. Marry the girl I love
7. Fly a plane some day
8. Drive a Super Car
9. Ride a Super Bike
10. Wake up with a Hangover
11. Learn Scuba Diving
12. Become a father
13. Watch a India Pakistan Cricket Match Live in Stadium
14. Direct a Short Film
15. Buy my own Apartment
16. Buy my own car
17. Gift a Trip to my parents
18. Work in a city other than Hyderabad
19. Go on a Road Trip to GOA
20. Drive my car on the beach
21. Paragliding
22. Parasailing
23. Get atleast one photograph published in a leading magazine
24. Witness and Photograph a Space Shuttle launch
25. Get a Tattoo
26. Witness Snowfall